15 months

Braden continues to get more and more active. This boy never sits still for 2 seconds unless he is sleeping or restrained in his high chair or car seat. He is fun, but certainly can wear me out quick! He's now running and almost able to jump two-footed from the floor. He can easily crawl up the whole flight of stairs (supervised of course :) ) and just last weekend learned how to climb down backward.

His vocabulary is beginning to increase as well, adding a new word every few days. His current vocabulary consists of: Mom, Daddy, Papa, Hi, Cracker, Go Go (said to anything with wheels- - - and the bigger the truck the more excited he gets!), Truck, Clock, Flower, Wow, Ewww :o), Yay, and Cookie. And, he can do sign language for Please, More, Drink, All Done and he's almost got Thank You. The amount that he understands is impressive. The other day I asked him to go to the laundry room and bring me his shoes so we could go bye-bye. He abandoned his truck and went in the laundry room and came out with a shoe. I was amazed.

Eating is a challenge with Braden. He seems to be a picky eater and struggles to successfully chew up any kind of meat. Protein comes mostly from milk/yogurt/cheese and occasionally I can get him to eat a hard-boiled egg with shredded cheese or bits of hot dog. And veggies. . . forget it. . . he won't eat "real"veggies. They only way I can get him to eat them is with pureed baby food and kind of trick him by alternating it with bites of something he likes. At his 15 month check up he weighed 20.6 lbs, 30 inches long. So, he is still hanging on around the 5-10% which is where he's always been. Lately he's been dealing with a cold, but my plan is to officially begin the bottle weaning within the next 1-2 weeks once the cold is gone. I know it will be a hard transition and we may go days without drinking milk. . . . but we've got to do it at some point. Wish us luck!

We are looking forward to this summer with Braden with being able to go to the park and zoo etc and just enjoy time as a family. He is such a joy and I am so glad that I get to be home with him part time. At times I think I'm overprotective and baby him compared to other mom's with kids his age. . . but I don't care. He's my first (and maybe only) and we went through a lot to have him. Well, that's the latest from us 'til next time.

13 months

1 year family pic
Braden's "screaming" face. I couldn't resist- he cracks me up!

Big boy walking :)

The big 1 year birthday party

Happy Birthday Braden!

I figured it's about time for another update. Braden continues to change so quickly. What was cautious toddling steps a month and a half ago is now nearly running. Walking is definitely his preferred mode of transportation and will crawl only when trying to fit in tight spaces. He also has learned how to throw a ball (and at times other things. . . . ) quite well overhand. I'm fairly certain he is ahead in this skill as overhand ball throwing isn't usually seen until 18 months. And, he also can kick a soccer ball by walking/running and kicking the ball as he is going. As you can imagine, Daddy is quite proud and the two of them dribble the soccer ball all around the kitchen. :) He can also say a few words- Mama, Daddy, "hi"- his most common word, and he can answer the question of what does the sheep say?- "Baaa" and with prompting. . .what does the puppy say? "Ruff ruff ruff". Recently he is starting to learn some sign language and has been able to do the sign for "All Done". We are still working on More, Please, and Drink and hope he'll eventually get it. The biggest challenge for Braden right now is with eating. Most kids his age are eating an increasing amount of table food. Braden is such a gagger that he struggles with textured food and after a few bites and a few gags, will then refuse it all together. As far as "Big Boy" foods, he can eat Cheerios, munch on a Ritz cracker, gnaw on a slice of apple and eat a few other fruits in his Nuby mesh food strainer. I know some other kids his age eating chicken nuggets, bites of hot dog, slices of cheese. . . . oh well. . . . I guess we'll get there eventually, but this Mommy is a little impatient to stop buying baby food. Braden is still drinking his milk from a bottle. I know, I know. . . all the "experts" on babies will tell you they should be weaned from the bottle by 1 year. I have tried a few times, although not that hard. I've tried to give him milk in a sippy cup and he wants nothing to do with it. He'll drink water or juice out of a sippy cup, but he thinks milk in a sippy cup should be against the law and after 1-2 sips will quickly push it away. Part of me doesn't want my "Baby" to grow up, so I've not been pushing the bottle weaning. I figure I'll give him another month or 2 and then try to push it. Most likely we'll just have to go cold turkey and only let him have the sippy cup and either he'll drink it or he won't and we'll have to get his dairy in him another way.

More and more I'm hearing of friends who have babies Braden's age pregnant with their next. Even though I'm not ready to be pregnant again yet. . . . . it still pains a little bit. I wonder if that will ever go away even when we're done having babies. I guess it's just the injustice of their being able to conceive so easily, seemingly whenever they want. But......then that is tempered by other friends who are currently on the same infertility journey we were on 2 years ago wondering if they will ever have a child at all. I must then sit back and count my blessings over and over and over. Braden is such a perfect gift from God and even if he never blesses us with any other children, I'm overjoyed with being able to have him.

I have started on birth control pills to try to keep the endometriosis under control by being on a continuous dose so that I never have a period. We hope to try our one frozen embryo this summer and are already praying for God's hand in that process. He knows the future of our family.

Where does the time go?

Christmas morning
Family Christmas picture

Braden's first experience with snow. Don't you just love the coat and hat? :)

Braden is now 2 weeks away from his 1st birthday! I can't believe it! My little bitty baby has and is turning into a little toddling boy. In fact, yesterday he took his first few steps on his own! Of course he was at my sister's and I missed it, but he did take a few more steps later in the evening. I'm sure it won't be long before he's walking comfortably and then on to running. Fun Fun! Also, another fun thing he's learned to do is drink out of a straw. We tried it kind of by accident when we went out to lunch last Sunday. I'd forgotten his sippy cup so I let him try to drink water out of my straw and he quickly figured it out! One of our recent behavior challenges is his learning to scream. He screams when he's excited and when he's mad/frustrated. We're trying to correct it with stern "NO's" and flicks of cheeks sometimes. As his personality develops he seems to be somewhat of a strong willed child. He certainly knows what he wants and not much will deter him from it. I'm sure there can be pros and cons to this, but we pray that we can nurture him into a determined, but obedient child. We also are winding down on breastfeeding. Braden his made it quite clear that he was done with nursing during the day time and within the past couple weeks, also does not want it before bed. In fact, he doesn't want ANY milk before bed and will now sleep through the night without it. Our last bit of breastfeeding we (I) are holding onto is first thing in the morning which also is quickly dwindling as he has little patience to lie down to nurse, but wants to be going, seeing what's going on the world. Such a busy little boy! It is a little sentimental for me to gradually give up the breastfeeding. It's certainly had it's ups and downs over the past year, but all in all, a very rewarding experience with some very sweet moments. I've felt like I've given Braden the best head start I could with his nutrition. And, having to buy formula the past month-----I am SOOOO glad we've not had to do that much. Sheesh it's expensive. Baby food is expensive enough! Our grocery bill has gone up quite a bit in the past 6 months!

We have also recently been talking about baby #2. It's exciting, but very scary at the same time to consider going through the nightmare of IVF again! But, unless God does a miracle (which he could do, but we're not betting on anything!) we'll have to pursue the rigors of medical technology for a 2nd child. We do have one frozen embryo which we will probably try within the next year and beyond that. . . we'll see. We would have to take some time to save up money for another round of IVF since I am working only part-time right now. But, we pray for God's blessing and His will to be done in the next phase of our lives as well. Braden was perfectly planned and made by God's hand and we know his plans are perfect.

Thanksgiving 2009- Braden 10 months old

Burkholder family

Our little Drummer Boy

Riding the horsey with a little help from Daddy.

Wagon ride

9 1/2 months!

Braden seems to get stronger and learn so many new skills almost daily. He now very quickly crawls, easily pulls up to stand on just about anything and is even starting to cruise along the coffee table. With his new found exploring skills also comes some new bruises and tears. We have tried to baby proof, keep sharp corners covered and are constantly redirecting him from "No-No's". He is also learning to exert his will and at times have had a battle of the wills when it comes to table manners and changing diapers. We hope he will be an obedient child, but so far he likes his own way better than minding us. He's a bit of an escape artist and can get through small openings when we try to barricade him in the living room. And he can almost do a pull-up on the side of the pack-n-play. It probably won't be long until he can climb out. Oh boy oh boy! (eeek, what's a mom to do?) He is constantly babbling saying "mama" and "dada", but not really associating it with us yet. He also has learned to eat the Gerber Puffs (cherrios type food) without gagging- most of the time. :) He now has 2 bottom teeth which makes his smiles that much sweeter, but he has to smile really big to see them.
My sweet little baby is turning into a bigger boy. It's fun, but also kind of sad to see the little baby things fade away in place of a willful almost toddler. We still count our blessings everyday to be able to have our little Braden.

8 months old

Braden and Pooh in his new rocking chair from Grandma and Grandpa

And another month has passed. It's amazing how quickly the time flies! Braden is now 8 months old and has gained so many skills just in the past week. He is now rolling proficiently which is exciting, but makes bedtime/naptime challenging as he will roll over and "play" with his binkie or his bear or just scoot around in his bed instead of sleep. He also is now sitting completely independently and can stand holding onto furniture for a short time. Braden is on the verge of crawling probably within the next week or 2. He gets up on hands and knees and rocks back and forth. Sometimes he'll lunge forward, but land on his face. He'll figure it out soon!

Also, he is beginning to cut a tooth on the bottom. You can kind of see it, but you can definitely feel the sharp edge with your finger. He's not bitten me yet (knock on wood). I know friends have said that once they do that, nursing becomes that much more challenging.

What a blessing!

Braden is now nearly 7 months old. How time does fly! He's getting more and more personality which is so fun to get to know. He is generally happy and definitely has a silly side to him. (I'm sure he gets that from his Dad :) ). He smiles easily and laughs often. And....we're finding is very ticklish. Curtis is able to get him laughing pretty hard from his tickles.

Physically he is able to roll over tummy to back and almost from back to tummy. He is able to sit nearly by himself for a short time. He loves to stand with just a little support- even just a hand hold. He is loving his exersaucer and loves to jump around in there. He gets to laughing and shrieking when he's in there. He cracks us up and Chloe is always jumping with his high pitched squeals.

I was realizing again today what a perfect blessing he is. At times he can be frustrating with getting him to eat/nurse enough or nap adequately. But he is such a good baby overall and we are so blessed to have him. When I hear of others going through fertility struggles or difficult pregnancies, it reminds me of the long hard road it took to get our little boy. He is our little miracle! I actually have an appointment with Dr. Jarrett (my reproductive endocrinologist) on September 1st to consult about our long term plan to keep my endometriosis under control and to discuss plans for baby #2- although that will be at least a year from now before I'd want to get pregnant again- in an ideal world.
More pics to come. . . . .